since i found you

i think of you in everything that i do
to be with you what ever it takes i'll do
cause you my love, you all my heart desires
you've lighten up my life forever i'm alive

since i found you my world seems so brand new
you've show me the love i never knew
your presence is what my whole life through
since i found you my life begin so new
now who needs a dream when there is you
for all of my dreams came true
since i found you

your love shines bright
through all the corners of my heart
maybe you are my dearest heart
i give you all i have my heart, my soul, my life
my destiny is you
forever true... i'm so in love with you

since i found you my world seems so brand new
you've show me the love i never knew
your presence is what my whole life through
since i found you my life begin so new
now who needs a dream when there is you
for all of my dreams came true
since i found you

my heart forever true...
in love with you.. 

another day... another story... noother feeling...

today is august the 17th hahahhaha HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA :D begitu menyedihkannya dihari ulang tahun kowos" sekola gue malah tubir hahhaha mau jadi penerus bangsa tapi kayak gitu astaga mending gausah sekoah deh lo kalo cuman mau ribut".. sebenernya ga masuk akal loh mereka bangga bisa kayak gitu! dikira keren apa?! kalo cewek yang bener sih gabakal ngelirik ya kecuali emang dasarnya ceweknya juga bandel.. paling didukung-_-sayang woy idup lo mau mati cuman karena hal bego kayak gitu?! hahaha maaf ya esmosi tp emg bodoh sih cowok" macem beraninya kroyokan! gak gentle hahahha hhh dan cerita yg lain.... bsok saya sudah berpisah kelas dengan X4 :( mulai besok udah gak ada sekolah main", bsa ganaek kali :( udah oktober udah ulangan semester 1 astaga menyedihkan.... ah demi cita"! ohiya ada cerita lg dr si labil Ivanna hehhe gue udh coba move on.. tp kenapa ya malah d paksa gni bawaannya nangis mulu?! kemaren gue crta ke Kania, eh dia malah blg kalo gue salah katnya 'lo mesti ngomong, sampe kapan lo cuman mau nunggu dia nyapa duluan, gabakal dia nyapa duluan van' agak nancep tp dia bener... cuman bukannya gue mementingkan gengsi apa gimana cuman ya emang susah gue a berani.. ya toh kan dia bentar lg jga tinggal nunggu udah ada yang baru.. gue udh 2kali mimpiin dia sm org lain astagaaa sakit bgt ya... yaa ud takdirnya.. gaboleh menyesali kesalahan" yg udah gue perbuat kecuali satu hal hahhahaa yah gue cuman bilangin ke semuanya ya... jadi cewek jangan bego... choose your heart wisely cause your heart could be so stupid, but your brain it will always protect your heart from making stupid decissions...itu ajasih dari pada nanti nyeselnya belakangan.. hahaha masa lalu mana bsa di ubah mana bsa di undo... lupa tuh ga segampang membalikkan telapak tangan, ngapus perasaan apalagi hahaha dan yg lain lagi hargailah apa yg lo punya saat ini, saat itu/ orang itu pergi.. bisa lo balikinnya? gak kan, bsa pun psti susah kalo lo udh sia"in.. mana ada org yg mau balik kalo udh di sia"in... jd hargai dan cintailah.... apalagi kalo udh sm org yg bener kecuali ga bener buang ajamah! cowok/cewek banyak kok di dunia, jangan mau ama yg gabener, mau sesayang apa tp kalo lo perthanain lo yg bego! hahahaha baca tweet"nya @jakartaKeras deh yaoloh nancep" semuaaa! hahahaa udah ah itu ajaa mau tidur lagi hahha gamo galau ohya doakan gue di sekolah ya dan doakan supaya gue lebih tegar :)

another grace ;) praise Lord

haaaaaaaalllllllllloooooooooooooo semuanya :) hehehehhe saya sedang sendiri di rumah semuanya kegereja :( eh tapi gue udah gereja pagi" hehehehe terus pulang tidur lagi dan sekarang saya sedang mengerjakan PR bahasa jermannya si Frau Niken cuman nyambi lah nulis blog nyeheheheeee ehiyaaa life's changing a lil bit wonderful loooh.. mulai hari ini gue udah ikut club tennis lagi.. since 2 years vakum hehehe masih sangat berniat dan mesti kurus ini selama SMA!!!! ehiya kemaren hari sabtu bangun pagi" gue udah di kagetkan dengan kabar yang begitu membahagiakan pertama dari Ali dia ping berkali" nah gue kebangun dengan mata yg masih sayu gue rada kesel dong orang lagi enak" tidur di bangunin... pas baca chatnya dia eh tau" dia ngmngin CIBI tp msh samar" pas baca lg dia blg 'ivannaaaaa Lo ketrima cibi :D' dan gue awalnya gak percaya... setelah itu ada bbm dr kania isinya 'ivanna selamat ya ketrima CIBI :*' masih agak gak percaya terus buka twitter eh udah ada mention dari si gila patrissss menyelamatkan lg.. hm yah masih takut mereka keliru tapi yg satu ini dapet bbm dr luthfi yg bukan temen sekelas gue dia blg 'selamat ya ketrima cibi van' gue spontan nnaya tau dr mana dia blg td di bacain woaaaaah gila lngsng seneng bgt gada ampun... I'LL END MY SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL YEARS IN 2 YEARS :D:D wohoooo Tuhan itu baik sekali... padahal gue udh pnya feeling ga ketrma dan indahnya gue gak tau hr apa pengumuman jd gue gak se deg"an yg parah" bgt heehehe yeah but this is just another beginning masuk CIBI itu gak gampang apalagi kalo udah di CIBI belajar harus ekstra lg hhh i know i may through it with my God and those support from people around me.... yeah doakan yaaa :) FKUI 2013 would be on me ;) yeah mungkin dengan ini juga i don't have any time for that stupid thing called romance.... yeah and anyway i know tme heals... even if i need some more seconds, minutes, hours, days, months or even years ;) Good has his own plan for me :) sekian, terimakasih :D

a little story of mine....

hallooo semua... sangkin bingungnya mau ngapain akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk menulis blog dan bercerita tentang berbagai hal :) and yeh i'm officially an utas in hujut hulup nangulub-_- school life isn't easy anymore, i didnt mean the subjects... pelajaran sih as far gak ada yg bkin stress" bgt... but those creature astaga ga bisa ngomong lagi.. berbahagialah kawan" yang mempunya sekolah dengan senioritas yang bisa di bilang tidak ada.... sangat teramat susah sekali meyakinkan diri sendiri bahwa satu tahun tidak lah lama... i have to cheer myself up everynight and every morning because i'm just to affraid going to school and meet my seniors :| kejadian di sekolah banyak bgt... gak mungkin di ceritain disini.. dan apalagi hal yg terjadi jumat lalu.. sukses bikin gue trauma dan entah kuat ke sekolah senin atau enggak, you may say i'm 'lebay' but you on't know how hard it is being an utas cause you're not.... dan bagaimanapun pihak" ngelarang cerita" ke siapa aja gue tetep setia bercerita sama mamaku tercinta and you know what... she asked me to move hellyeah gue langsung seneng... tapi sangat bergumul karena gue masih nunggu pengumuman CIBI... gue bener" punya feeling gue ga diterima :( sedih bgt ye, tapi it's good cause i've prepared my self for the worst even i still hope for the best :) yah bsa di bilang cuman ada 2 pilihan 'hello CIBI' atau 'goodbye 70 bulungan' :D just see later.. dan kehidupan di rumah opung, tinggal sama 2 tante dan 1 om tidak lah terlalu sepi... karena gue juga udah sibuk pulang skolah hrus les.. atau kadang kalo gak les tidur dulu bangun lngsng belajar... jadi even i dont have any brothers or sisters there to share with gue juga udah disibukkan... dan yeaaaah aku sudah besar lohhh pagi" sih msh di anter skolah tapi i go home naik bus \m/ ke les dan pulang skolah hehehe yah capek hrus jalan jauh juga but anyway siapa tau gue bsa kurus hahahahahahaa dan sekarang udah gapernah berantem sama mama lagi hehe ya gimana enggak tiap hari dia bbm cman bilang kangen blablabla trus kalo balik ke rumah ya di ajak jalan".. trus skrg juga dia makin baik... udah bebas aja pergi" mau kemana aja mau ampe jem brapa aja hehe kasian kali ya sama gue senin-kamis tersiksa cman bsa skolah-les-belajar D: gak taudeh mau crita apalagi hehehe may be it's enough...... bye :D

"I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart." 

don't regret your relationship w your ex, you've choosen him/her, tho at the end you feel she/he's not the one you need for life, they actually gave sth for you to learn and make yourself a better person :)

cause a relationship isn't a game, think mature, if your couple was so in love with you but then you're not serious with it, you're breaking someone's heart. i mean being in a relationship wasn't an entertainment, but it's a way which 2 people come together as one filling each others flaws and backing each other up when they're having a problem :) not all pretty girl you meet everyday can fill you and not all handsome boy you're crazy with can always be there for you, know them well, know their heart then you may know whether they're the best/not ;;) old phrase : 'don't judge a book by it's cover' ;)

love without reason is the everlasting one, somehow i was agree :) if you love someone with one reason even millions how if those fact fade away, ex: i love him because he's kind so then when he's being a jerk then you stop loving him? it wasn't 'love' it's much like 'like' cause when you love someone you'll love anything in him even their flaws, i mean you can try to change him/her but truthfully that wasn't easy to remove our flaws that's why even if they can't change you have to accept them and fill their flaws with your excellence :) you need to know your couple well and understand each other :)

and then remember, if you really love someone don't give up on him/her, HOLD ON! you deserve him/her and she/he also deserves you as well :) and even if they break you, love will heal itself and continue its journey to get that special person whether by waiting or fight for it, all you need is faith and beliefs :)

Promise me that you'll stand by me forever. But if God forbid fate should step in and force us into a goodbye.
Someday, you'll have your own children, when they point to our pictures, please tell them my name, tell them how I hope they're ours, tell them that we used to be the happiest couple& build our dreams together.