why is it so hard to let go?

why is it so hard to forget?

you've hurted me, once, twice, even more.

but then always, there's something in my heart saying we're still for each other.

but that stupid feeling really hurts me.

cause it's all wrong! now i have to build my heart from the start,

and yeah am not going to give any chances for anyone to break it,

like i've let you to.

and now the time you've found your new one,

don't you know it really kills me?!

where's all the promises you've said?

is it that easy for you to break it?

yeah i should laugh as loud as i can.

all those things you've said about me, all those thoughts.

i've proven you're wrong.

see? in the end i'm the one who stand's still. and i'm the one who's going to love you,

i really hope not forever, but till the time i write this, im still deeply in love:")

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ceyamat mayam cemuaaaaaaa<3 udah lama ya enggak nulis blog:( gue lagi pengen cerita aja nih terlalu banyak penat auch</3 ini udah hari minggu ajaya, tanggalnya bagus lagi 091011:-) dipastikan hari ini banyak yang jadian. selamat yaaaaa:-D aduh gatau harusn mulai cerita yang mana tapi semua cerita gue itu sedih:-( ya pertama sekolah gue hmm nilai sih ya bsa dibilang memuaskan, MEMUASKAN loh belom baik. kenapa dibilang memuaskan karena nilai gue gak cukup untuk mendapatkan setidaknya rangking 5 besar dikelas, kenapa? nihya seandainya lo udah dpet 90, yg notabene menurut semua orang nilai lo itu udah bagus, tapi anak kelas lo banyak banget yg dapet 100, yah 90 udah gak akan di anggep bagus lagi bukan?(jangan berpikiran sombong ya tapi angka tadi hanya contoh kokss;-)) hmm dan ya cita" gue sedari dulu adalah...........jadi dokter dan masuk FKUI, pake jaket kuning dan tiap hari nyetir lewatin tol panjang nyampe salemba semester pertama diujinyalinya di RSCM. huh mau bgt. tapi kalian tahu tidak quota bangu yg tersedia hanya 170 ya HANYA. sedangkan anak di kelas gue aja, cuman di kelas loh 7 orang yg mau masuk FKUI. gimana diluar sana, gue gaktau deh hhhh ya doakan ya supaya gue bisa:-) daaaaaan kalian tau apa 2 minggu yg lalu gue bru aja abis ujian awal semester. dan tadaaaaaa senin(besok) udah uts hahuhah apa"an ya sekolah</3 dan lebih gilanya lagi yayaya minggu depan ujian akhir semester. TUHAN YESUS BERKATILAH IVANNA. amen! ya apalagi ya gue mau cerita? hehehe gak ada kaliya, ohya cuman mau blg sesuatu buat seseorang diluar sana:

dear new girlfriend,

treat him well. he always act tough, even if he's not. 

don't let go of his kisses&hugs first, it puts a huge smile on his face. 

always hold his hand if he reaches for it, it will make him feel he owns you. 

And realize that you're having the greatest guy when you're dating him cause

he's one of the best thing, i've ever had. 
and please, dont ever hurt him cause he really dont deserve to be hurt.

sincerely,

his ex girlfriend</3

brain and heart

have you ever feel lyk you wanna shout out loud and cry?! that's what i'm feeling now, and the reason is NOTHING! well, of course i mean lyk sth uncertain! i don't know the true story but hell my mind says to many bad things, well STUPID BRAIN! the fact is YOUR BRAIN HURTS YOUR HEART , see you'll hurt cause your brain always think negatively, but you don't even know whether it's true or not! and of course erasing those stupid thoughts will be hard cause you can't control your brain and especially your heart! your heart chooses itself what to feel for someone or for any situation, and I HATE IT! my brain and my heart doesn't get well each other they seemed to be lyk enemies! huuuuhhhh. ex : brain said things that makes sense, but heart, it have a big faith in sth it believes will be true! you may use your brain but i think your heart is the one who'll be right ;) and i think you're smart enough to decide when to use your brain and when to use your heart :D

reasons why ppl can't stop loving someone

okay i've got some reasons to tell why ppl couldn't stop loving their dearest one ;) some of you may be agree but some won't, okay listen opinions won't be wrong ;)


1. this person is your first love *first love and first bf/gf are different*
2. that person made you smile every time
3. that person is the first who's there when you need someone to share
4. that person is the one who takes your hand and hug you when you feel cold
5. that person is the one that you text with all the day
6. that person has been with you for a long time
7. that person is understands you the most
8. that person is the one you can laugh with but you can cry with too
9. that person is the one that acts not as him/her self for comfort you
10. that person has been your mood booster all the time
11. you think that person is worth fighting for
12. that person's willing to hurt just to make you happy *your happiness is their priority*
13. you've too much sweet memories, too much things done together
14. everything's done by that person always seems to be right *even it hurts you*
15. both of you have promised TO LOVE EACH OTHER TILL THE END OF TIME 
16. your heart always tells you 'don't worry he'll come back'


and so on, and if my heart can shout it'll shout " HEY BOY, SEE YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE ONE, SO COME BACK SOON "