cerita lain.......

ceyamat mayam cemuaaaaaaa<3 udah lama ya enggak nulis blog:( gue lagi pengen cerita aja nih terlalu banyak penat auch</3 ini udah hari minggu ajaya, tanggalnya bagus lagi 091011:-) dipastikan hari ini banyak yang jadian. selamat yaaaaa:-D aduh gatau harusn mulai cerita yang mana tapi semua cerita gue itu sedih:-( ya pertama sekolah gue hmm nilai sih ya bsa dibilang memuaskan, MEMUASKAN loh belom baik. kenapa dibilang memuaskan karena nilai gue gak cukup untuk mendapatkan setidaknya rangking 5 besar dikelas, kenapa? nihya seandainya lo udah dpet 90, yg notabene menurut semua orang nilai lo itu udah bagus, tapi anak kelas lo banyak banget yg dapet 100, yah 90 udah gak akan di anggep bagus lagi bukan?(jangan berpikiran sombong ya tapi angka tadi hanya contoh kokss;-)) hmm dan ya cita" gue sedari dulu adalah...........jadi dokter dan masuk FKUI, pake jaket kuning dan tiap hari nyetir lewatin tol panjang nyampe salemba semester pertama diujinyalinya di RSCM. huh mau bgt. tapi kalian tahu tidak quota bangu yg tersedia hanya 170 ya HANYA. sedangkan anak di kelas gue aja, cuman di kelas loh 7 orang yg mau masuk FKUI. gimana diluar sana, gue gaktau deh hhhh ya doakan ya supaya gue bisa:-) daaaaaan kalian tau apa 2 minggu yg lalu gue bru aja abis ujian awal semester. dan tadaaaaaa senin(besok) udah uts hahuhah apa"an ya sekolah</3 dan lebih gilanya lagi yayaya minggu depan ujian akhir semester. TUHAN YESUS BERKATILAH IVANNA. amen! ya apalagi ya gue mau cerita? hehehe gak ada kaliya, ohya cuman mau blg sesuatu buat seseorang diluar sana:

dear new girlfriend,

treat him well. he always act tough, even if he's not. 

don't let go of his kisses&hugs first, it puts a huge smile on his face. 

always hold his hand if he reaches for it, it will make him feel he owns you. 

And realize that you're having the greatest guy when you're dating him cause

he's one of the best thing, i've ever had. 
and please, dont ever hurt him cause he really dont deserve to be hurt.

sincerely,

his ex girlfriend</3

another grace ;) praise Lord

haaaaaaaalllllllllloooooooooooooo semuanya :) hehehehhe saya sedang sendiri di rumah semuanya kegereja :( eh tapi gue udah gereja pagi" hehehehe terus pulang tidur lagi dan sekarang saya sedang mengerjakan PR bahasa jermannya si Frau Niken cuman nyambi lah nulis blog nyeheheheeee ehiyaaa life's changing a lil bit wonderful loooh.. mulai hari ini gue udah ikut club tennis lagi.. since 2 years vakum hehehe masih sangat berniat dan mesti kurus ini selama SMA!!!! ehiya kemaren hari sabtu bangun pagi" gue udah di kagetkan dengan kabar yang begitu membahagiakan pertama dari Ali dia ping berkali" nah gue kebangun dengan mata yg masih sayu gue rada kesel dong orang lagi enak" tidur di bangunin... pas baca chatnya dia eh tau" dia ngmngin CIBI tp msh samar" pas baca lg dia blg 'ivannaaaaa Lo ketrima cibi :D' dan gue awalnya gak percaya... setelah itu ada bbm dr kania isinya 'ivanna selamat ya ketrima CIBI :*' masih agak gak percaya terus buka twitter eh udah ada mention dari si gila patrissss menyelamatkan lg.. hm yah masih takut mereka keliru tapi yg satu ini dapet bbm dr luthfi yg bukan temen sekelas gue dia blg 'selamat ya ketrima cibi van' gue spontan nnaya tau dr mana dia blg td di bacain woaaaaah gila lngsng seneng bgt gada ampun... I'LL END MY SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL YEARS IN 2 YEARS :D:D wohoooo Tuhan itu baik sekali... padahal gue udh pnya feeling ga ketrma dan indahnya gue gak tau hr apa pengumuman jd gue gak se deg"an yg parah" bgt heehehe yeah but this is just another beginning masuk CIBI itu gak gampang apalagi kalo udah di CIBI belajar harus ekstra lg hhh i know i may through it with my God and those support from people around me.... yeah doakan yaaa :) FKUI 2013 would be on me ;) yeah mungkin dengan ini juga i don't have any time for that stupid thing called romance.... yeah and anyway i know tme heals... even if i need some more seconds, minutes, hours, days, months or even years ;) Good has his own plan for me :) sekian, terimakasih :D

a little story of mine....

hallooo semua... sangkin bingungnya mau ngapain akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk menulis blog dan bercerita tentang berbagai hal :) and yeh i'm officially an utas in hujut hulup nangulub-_- school life isn't easy anymore, i didnt mean the subjects... pelajaran sih as far gak ada yg bkin stress" bgt... but those creature astaga ga bisa ngomong lagi.. berbahagialah kawan" yang mempunya sekolah dengan senioritas yang bisa di bilang tidak ada.... sangat teramat susah sekali meyakinkan diri sendiri bahwa satu tahun tidak lah lama... i have to cheer myself up everynight and every morning because i'm just to affraid going to school and meet my seniors :| kejadian di sekolah banyak bgt... gak mungkin di ceritain disini.. dan apalagi hal yg terjadi jumat lalu.. sukses bikin gue trauma dan entah kuat ke sekolah senin atau enggak, you may say i'm 'lebay' but you on't know how hard it is being an utas cause you're not.... dan bagaimanapun pihak" ngelarang cerita" ke siapa aja gue tetep setia bercerita sama mamaku tercinta and you know what... she asked me to move hellyeah gue langsung seneng... tapi sangat bergumul karena gue masih nunggu pengumuman CIBI... gue bener" punya feeling gue ga diterima :( sedih bgt ye, tapi it's good cause i've prepared my self for the worst even i still hope for the best :) yah bsa di bilang cuman ada 2 pilihan 'hello CIBI' atau 'goodbye 70 bulungan' :D just see later.. dan kehidupan di rumah opung, tinggal sama 2 tante dan 1 om tidak lah terlalu sepi... karena gue juga udah sibuk pulang skolah hrus les.. atau kadang kalo gak les tidur dulu bangun lngsng belajar... jadi even i dont have any brothers or sisters there to share with gue juga udah disibukkan... dan yeaaaah aku sudah besar lohhh pagi" sih msh di anter skolah tapi i go home naik bus \m/ ke les dan pulang skolah hehehe yah capek hrus jalan jauh juga but anyway siapa tau gue bsa kurus hahahahahahaa dan sekarang udah gapernah berantem sama mama lagi hehe ya gimana enggak tiap hari dia bbm cman bilang kangen blablabla trus kalo balik ke rumah ya di ajak jalan".. trus skrg juga dia makin baik... udah bebas aja pergi" mau kemana aja mau ampe jem brapa aja hehe kasian kali ya sama gue senin-kamis tersiksa cman bsa skolah-les-belajar D: gak taudeh mau crita apalagi hehehe may be it's enough...... bye :D

a little story of my life..

heeey i'm back :) udah lama ya gak nulis blog, sebenernya rencananya udah lama pengen cerita", malah tadinya mau nunda sampe hari rabu malem tapi hari ini gabisa tidur ya jadinya nulis aja deh :) mulai dari masalah sekolah yaa. minggu lalu eh 2 minggu lalu, pas hari pertama UN pulangnya gue daftar online di 70, terus pas hari apa ya? jumatnya setelah selesai UN gue verifikasi berkas. nah sabtu minggu depannya kan pengumuman, gue udah bener" takut, apa gue lolos verifikasi apa engga. eh tau"nya lulus :) nah terus selasa-rabunya gue tes disana ya well disana sekolahnya such good as GS, belnya mirip, gedungnya juga mirip malah sbnernya lebih besar hehe tp toiletnya hmmmmmm that's one my dislikes, and also bangku dan meja yg masih pake kayu, tapi semua full AC. nah hari pertama tesnya itu MAT & IPS :) hr kedua IPA&BI you guys will totally shocked kalau liat soalnya, hmm standarnya di atas UN jauh dan mirip" sama soal penabur bisa dibilang potensinya sama. nah well selama gue ujian gue tinggal di rumah opung hehe rumah gue kalau seandainya jadi masuk situ! (AMIIIIN!) and ada cerita yg sedih... opung boru gue dari bokap msuk RS lagi...... and kali ini karena dia kanker rahim :(:( tapi pas hari kamis udah di operasi :) and now everything's fine. pas hari jumatnya tgl 13/05 gue jagain dia di RS, gue nginep disana, tadinya rencananya kan hr sbtu gue mau liat pengumuman di 70 langsung . pas besok paginya gue udah kesana tuh naik taksi tapi sialnya kagak di pasang malah disuru liat di web. nahyaaa gue udah sangat" ketakutan harap-harap cemas! gue langsung telfon nyokap dan suru dia liat hehe dia pake lama lagi. tp dan ternyata gue LOLOS! urutan 51 dr 352 hehe :) PUJI TUHAN bgt! terus kan daya tampung maks buat anak luar 16 org nah yg lolos seleksi 16, emang nih Jakarta pelit ngsh daya tampung-_- tapi gue berdoa bgt biar gue bsa ngerjain TOEFL prediction gue hari rabu hehe :) ohya mau tau nilai guekah? BI 85 MAT 90 IPA 77,5 IPS 78 not that good but well if tried my best lah ;) soal gue diterima / enggaknya nanti itu semua rencana Tuhan, nyokap gue selalu mengajarkan kita untuk berserah berserah dan berserah. karena rencana Tuhan itu jauh lebih baik dari rancana manusia :)

dan hal k2 yg pengen gue ceritain itu ttg seseorang yg sangat teramat salah gue nilai! yeah girl i should know from the start that you're not that type of bestfriend i need. hmmm mungkin gue ini orangnya terlalu sensitif atau apa tapi gimana ya gue udah capek pendem, capek sakit hati jadi mending gue gausah temenan lagi sama dia, itu yang gue putusin, soal gue sekamar sm dia di bali ya apa boleh buat, biarkanlaaah..........

the last but not least, something made me really happy, well someone realized me something, that someone showed me that ....... *maksutnya titik" itu sesuatunya itu* and that's why i'm still holding on ummm even if i was upset because of........... but i choose to over think about the positive side not the negative one. and well i believe if we're meant to be sooner or later God will make the way............ and this time i really miss that someone, i really wish he could be here i miss his voice his arms his 'kebawelan' and this is funny but most of them i miss OUR FIGHTS :') the point is I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT SOMEONE! ISLYSM <3:D

over sensitivity.

HELL-O people, how's life treating you? well life's trating me like b*tch now HEEEEEELLLL! everyone's changing, C-H-A-N-G-I-N-G bestfriends become strangers, strangers become bestfriends thats totally awkward. except those changes of people around me, my heat is also changing *ababil* it's acting OVER SENSITIVE well, i'm an sensitive person but before it i wasn't OVERLY SENSITIVE! and you know what, it kills me :( what would you say if a friend of you or even bestfriend speak bad things about you INFRONT  of you with her innocent face?! i won't yell at her or even get mad, but please my heart's breaking! heart breaks not only because of love things but it also breaks because of any judgments, wrong opinion! fyi, i don't hate people breaking my heart i just feel like it's better for me to take far steps from them, you probably know what i mean! okay than the second one is, what would you feel if someone called herself your bestfriend actin like one but she can't even understand how you really are even you've been with her for 4 years long and you've told her about your dislike about her, and she understood it but she repeat it for about 3 times?! HELL, was i wrong choosing bestfriend? people i feel like they wasn't my bestfriend because i just know them for a short period of time understands what i mean when i tell them my dislikes about them, wait i am not speaking about 'I want everyone to change for me' but i am talking about a FRIENDSHIP and how i and my bestfriend take part in! this person really realized me that BESTFRIEND WASN'T BASED ON HOW LONG YOU KNOW SOMEONE BUT HOW COULD YOU UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER. and pleae to everyone, STOP BEING STUBBORN, you should try to listen to people's opinion than listening to your own opinion, PEOPLE SEE YOU, GOD GIVE YOU RELATIVES TO HELP YOU TO BE A BETTER PERSON! when people hates you please watch yourself, 'have i done sth wrong?' not ' she hates me i hate her back HAHA' i call this kind of person STUPID! ah i'm done with these things, i really wish i am someone without any heart or a fragile heart who won't feel any pain when someone try to break it and won't care how people around me say bad words or any other mean things in front of me! well, before you dismiss me, listen:

1. I won't take any shixz from people who doesn't meant much in my life. i mean i won't listen to bad opinions about me from people who doesn't know me well or who haven't known me for such a long time! but when my besties or family speak bad about me i feel like i just wanna disappear!
2. I won't get hurt when i know that person didn't mean it, like when we're joking together or that person have ever told me that ' when i mock you or speak bad things about you im joking i appreciate this kind of people!
3. When i am deeply in love with someone i won't keep those words in my heart cause my sensitivity doesn't work to someone i deeply love (this thing happens to me after sth i've been trough, and probably i am still trough it) cause well i knew him before and when he speak something bad about me there are many meanings behind it and boyfriend talks and bestfriend talks well the way they say it to me should be different, and certainly are! 

so people or strangers when you say anything about me SORRY i won't think about it and people whom my heart's being sensitive to, YOU GUYS MEAN A LOT TO ME :) 

if you have PEACE within yourself nobody can touch you no matter WHAT happens! mom said this to me, but well, i can't even fight myself now, but i have to try, but well people can't change directly :)

what a beautiful day :)

hell-O peppo, how's life treating? fine? huuuuh? if u ask how's mine? i'll directly answer fine :) hari ini hari terakhir UP loooooh :):) eh sumpah bgt loh td nyesek bgt pas up voli, masa pas latihan gue bisa eh pas UP malah cman 1 yg masuk :(:(:( shixzzzzz hate it! hmm, terus abis UP gue ke rumah oji loooh, sama nadine cindy sharon evan kenny zef jm. awalnya tuh ya kita nungguin si oji lamaaaaaaa bgt dia pacaran dulu gitu deh sm si sasha hehe sbel deh gua ngguin org pacaran *kayak lo gaperna pcran aja iv* ahahhaha terus tuh kita naek angkot ke rumah dia, abis itu beli dvd, stlah itu kita naek becak, yeaaaaah BECAAAAK \:)/ gue dmen bngt deh naek becak :):) kita kayak pawai gitudeh 5 becak, hehe gue sm cindy 1 becak, kita pling terakhir, biasa gitu ya org penting butuh di kawal :p nah stelah itu pertama kita nntn paranormal activity 2, itu film hmmmm lumayanlahya, tp ga gitu nyeremin hehe terus ke2 kita nntn black swan, eh si zef ama kenny marah" katanya film kagak jelas, but well sorry, u need to have a great brain 2 understand that movie :p emg sih agak aneeeeh dan some scenes rn't good to be watched by us hehehe thats yaaaaackieee! nah abis itu si zef nntn lg apa gitu kalo gasalah 30 days to nights ato apa hehe tp gue ndine cindy shrn jm ke kmarnya oji, tntu sm ojinya ngbrol" gitu hehe trus si oji malah otp, si sharon ama jm berduaan gitu deh maen ayunan ecieeeee :p eh katanya curhat"an, smpe smua org bngung dah sbnernya pacarnya si shrn tuh si jm ato si ...... -__________- eh pas nyokapnya oji si tante gahuuuuul pulang, kita semua balik ke ruang tamu, and ternyata ada inccident gitu deh, hpnya si shrn di umpetin sama............ kankan pada nuduh gue , ophya jd d umpetinnya itu di tasnya JM, hehe emang sih pada rese abis nuduh" gue, trus saling tuduh"an deh, kcuali 1 org yg cman bsa bela diri, tuh si zef, eh kita smua kan mikir dia dong, tp dia ttp gamo ngaku, terus gue suruh siapapun yg ngerasa nyembunyiin dan tau siapa ngaku, eh si kenny ngaku deh dia blg dia yg ngusulin tp zef yg umpetin, nah kan anehnya udh ada saksi gitu, tuh manusia bebal msh gamo ngaku oh please-_- udh d desek" ampe dia sumpah" kagak mo ngaku, ampe kita blg putus ama gaby loh, eh dia malah blg putusin aja, HEY MAAAAAAN LO KIRA LO CKEP BNYK YG MAU?! najis abis ada cowok kayak lo x_x tapi akhrnya skian lamaaaaaa kita mendesak dia ngaku juga, terus stelah itu nih ya, kita berdebat lg, kenapa?! karena bantuin zef mau pulang dia gapunya ongkos, eh tp sm aja deh udh kita pusing" ampe si tante gahoool juga pusing, si zef ttp aja bebal-_______- udahlah manusia macem lo mati aja weeeeey! dan sampe akhirnya kita pulang deeeeeh :) pelajaran yg gue dpet hr ini : jangan berbohong nnti org" d sekitar lo gbkal percaya sm lo lg!

hypocrites! haters!

I know, we're all living with masks on our face. Hypocrites. And haters. i admit that i'm that kind of person and well some of you doesn't need to refuse it too! see, we usually play w ppl we hate, we judge them, we talk about them, we disfigure them, but then in front of them we say 'hello' and give them our best smile! HAHA what-a-life! but then i got a few friends that hearts like an angel, they can't hate ppl, but like life has taught me that there's nobody perfect, they may judge ppl and talk about their*the bad ppl's* badness too!the difference between an evil person and those angel hearted person is the evil one will act lyk there's nothing wrong in front of them and play lyk they're best friend! but those angel hearted will come to them and explain 'why do much ppl dislike you'.


well, this happens to me all the day ;) i admit that i'll do those 2 things above, once again then i remember that no one's perfect in this entire whole world, even hero's have the right to bleed. to some ppl i'll choose wearing my mask and be hypocrite, why? cause when i try to tell them that i dislike them, i surely know that they'll say 'hey don't you have a mirror' and we'll end up being enemies, and i don't want to get more and more enemies. well actually those i can't tell, are those who surely hates me too, i know that out there, there are a bunch of people hating me, i'm sorry but it's better for you trying to tell me cause i'll appreciate every-little-thing someone tells me and i'll try to change, but again don't expect too much from me, cause i'm the type of person hardly change *too many facts*. but, out of it to those who hates me a little or a lot, and if you read this, it's better for you to say everything you hate in front of me or just act lyk you hate me or you don't know me cause when i know that you hate me and you still act lyk i'm your bestbestbest friend, i'll disrespect you, sorry but no offense! but to some ppl, lyk my closest friends, my classmates, i'll choose saying to them, we'll i've tried some of them listens but some of them ignore, but because of telling them i feel lyk everything's clear cause i won't expect much things from others that i think i can't do it too, the point is i've been honest! 


and for haters of mine, listen :

"I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring me down

So don't you bring me down today"

- Christina Aguilera

i aint gonna take shixz of you guys,

 cause i love me the way i am and for those justice you say about me... 

CHIN UP, WIDE SMILE, WALK AWAY, AND BYEBYE !

when a simple ' HELLO ' grows ......

everything begins with a simple ........

we say 'HELLO'

then we became .......

friends, talking about ourselves, our likes, dislikes, sharing stories ;) 

then we knew each other better.

suddenly, we feel lyk we suite each other and ........

we lay sth called LOVE on each other ;) 

the sweetest feeling ever :)

and LOVE grows with a simple........

we hug and kiss each other, to be together is our pleasure ;)

then we begin to......

promise each other to be together FOREVER :)

and.....

we hope we'll end lyk this :)