Promise me that you'll stand by me forever. But if God forbid fate should step in and force us into a goodbye.
Someday, you'll have your own children, when they point to our pictures, please tell them my name, tell them how I hope they're ours, tell them that we used to be the happiest couple& build our dreams together.

end of the road - BOYZ2MEN

boy you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You’ll be mine forever baby, you just see

We belong together
And you that I’m right
Why do you play with my head,
Hy do you play with my mind? 

Said we’d be forever
Said it’d never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye? 

boy I can’t sleep at night without holding you tight
boy, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I’d rather be dead
Spinnin’ around and around


Chorus:
Although we’ve come to the end of the road
Still I can’t let you go
It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can’t let you go
It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you


boy, I know you really love me,
You just don’t realize
You’ve never been there before
It’s only your first time

Maybe I’ll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you’ll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and i

will you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don’t let me, don’t let me down


boy I’m here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just didn’t care
You just don’t understand how much I love you do you? 
I’m here for you

I’m not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that’s all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I’m still gonna be here for you ’till my dying day baby
Right now, I’m just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won’t come back to me
Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)
Yes baby my heart is lonely
(lonely)
My heart hurts baby
(lonely)
Yes I feel pain too
Baby please

This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don’t let me go

a little story of my life..

heeey i'm back :) udah lama ya gak nulis blog, sebenernya rencananya udah lama pengen cerita", malah tadinya mau nunda sampe hari rabu malem tapi hari ini gabisa tidur ya jadinya nulis aja deh :) mulai dari masalah sekolah yaa. minggu lalu eh 2 minggu lalu, pas hari pertama UN pulangnya gue daftar online di 70, terus pas hari apa ya? jumatnya setelah selesai UN gue verifikasi berkas. nah sabtu minggu depannya kan pengumuman, gue udah bener" takut, apa gue lolos verifikasi apa engga. eh tau"nya lulus :) nah terus selasa-rabunya gue tes disana ya well disana sekolahnya such good as GS, belnya mirip, gedungnya juga mirip malah sbnernya lebih besar hehe tp toiletnya hmmmmmm that's one my dislikes, and also bangku dan meja yg masih pake kayu, tapi semua full AC. nah hari pertama tesnya itu MAT & IPS :) hr kedua IPA&BI you guys will totally shocked kalau liat soalnya, hmm standarnya di atas UN jauh dan mirip" sama soal penabur bisa dibilang potensinya sama. nah well selama gue ujian gue tinggal di rumah opung hehe rumah gue kalau seandainya jadi masuk situ! (AMIIIIN!) and ada cerita yg sedih... opung boru gue dari bokap msuk RS lagi...... and kali ini karena dia kanker rahim :(:( tapi pas hari kamis udah di operasi :) and now everything's fine. pas hari jumatnya tgl 13/05 gue jagain dia di RS, gue nginep disana, tadinya rencananya kan hr sbtu gue mau liat pengumuman di 70 langsung . pas besok paginya gue udah kesana tuh naik taksi tapi sialnya kagak di pasang malah disuru liat di web. nahyaaa gue udah sangat" ketakutan harap-harap cemas! gue langsung telfon nyokap dan suru dia liat hehe dia pake lama lagi. tp dan ternyata gue LOLOS! urutan 51 dr 352 hehe :) PUJI TUHAN bgt! terus kan daya tampung maks buat anak luar 16 org nah yg lolos seleksi 16, emang nih Jakarta pelit ngsh daya tampung-_- tapi gue berdoa bgt biar gue bsa ngerjain TOEFL prediction gue hari rabu hehe :) ohya mau tau nilai guekah? BI 85 MAT 90 IPA 77,5 IPS 78 not that good but well if tried my best lah ;) soal gue diterima / enggaknya nanti itu semua rencana Tuhan, nyokap gue selalu mengajarkan kita untuk berserah berserah dan berserah. karena rencana Tuhan itu jauh lebih baik dari rancana manusia :)

dan hal k2 yg pengen gue ceritain itu ttg seseorang yg sangat teramat salah gue nilai! yeah girl i should know from the start that you're not that type of bestfriend i need. hmmm mungkin gue ini orangnya terlalu sensitif atau apa tapi gimana ya gue udah capek pendem, capek sakit hati jadi mending gue gausah temenan lagi sama dia, itu yang gue putusin, soal gue sekamar sm dia di bali ya apa boleh buat, biarkanlaaah..........

the last but not least, something made me really happy, well someone realized me something, that someone showed me that ....... *maksutnya titik" itu sesuatunya itu* and that's why i'm still holding on ummm even if i was upset because of........... but i choose to over think about the positive side not the negative one. and well i believe if we're meant to be sooner or later God will make the way............ and this time i really miss that someone, i really wish he could be here i miss his voice his arms his 'kebawelan' and this is funny but most of them i miss OUR FIGHTS :') the point is I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT SOMEONE! ISLYSM <3:D

i just wanna throw everything away from my heart :)

halooo semua. bagaimana dunia memperlakukan kalian? (re:how's life treating you?) kalau bagiku dunia semakin jahat :( hmm, gue mau cerita sesuatu yang pasti dibilang gue labil. yah, sudah wajar ya masa-masa remaja di umur yg seperti gue ini orang labil. besok gue harus daftar ke 70, tapi tiba-tiba ada sesuatu yang bikin gue gamau pindah, ya dan itu cuman gue yang tau, temen-temen gue dan keluargapun gatau. kalau ditanya nyokap kenapa gamau pindah emang? gue slalu bilang mau tapi mau tetep tinggal disini. ya sebenernya emang sih alesannya gue gabisa pisah dari temen-temen gue yang sekarang, pisah sama adek-adek gue. gue slalu mikir apa bakal ada temen baru yang mengerti gue? apa ada temen baru yang mau dengerin curhatan gue yang itu-itu aja? apa ada temen baru yang terima kegilaan gue? apa ada temen baru yang bisa diajak bolos kalau lagi ngantuk ke sekolah? LOL kayaknya semua itu gue cuman dapet di GS ya hehepasti suasana berubah :( ohya, skrg gue lagi UN looh, tp sangkin stressnya sama masalah sekolah baru ini gue jd ganiat belajar :( di tambah ada satu masalah lagi yang selalu terbayang", padahal kalau msalah yg ini selesai gue bisa loh pindah dengan damai. ya i'm the one who knows it! ohya gue juga belom mau pisah sama anak-anak 9E!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO DAYUUUUUUM MUAAAACHHHHH! apalagi tere mia debo ceping dkk. :(:( ah udah ya itu aja tolong ya semua doakan gue, semoga gue bsa bersabar menghadapi dunia yang hina ini. dan bisa berserah sama rencana Tuhan :(

i know God has a plan for me and his plan is better than my plan :) 

closer to you - josef hedinger

its pouring down like rain
and no denyin it, baby
and now it's started to flame
Oh boy you got me going insane in a good way
can't get you off of my brain
ain't that a shame

if there is just one thing that i gotta do
is wrap my arms around you
and hold you close and never let you go

can I get closer?
can I get closer?
can I get closer?
closer to you

now can i wipe away your tears?
wipe away your fears?
be the woman that you need me to be
can i get closer?
closer to you

now lately i've been thinking bout him
and i just dont understand
how God can make a man so handsome?
so perfect for one woman

coz when i wake in the morning
and i think about your face
no one in this world could ever take your place
its u me, we are meant to be, baby oh

and now im thinkin to myself whats goin on?
coz its too good to be true
but then i remember there's a God up there sayin'
girl, this one's for you

nb: and now i'm feelin like it's so hard for me to get close to you like we used to :(

crazy little sister called emily ;)

hellooooow people :) i just cameroid-ed some picts w my crazy little sister ;) her name is emily, wanna see some? here they are:

that's all :):) 

over sensitivity.

HELL-O people, how's life treating you? well life's trating me like b*tch now HEEEEEELLLL! everyone's changing, C-H-A-N-G-I-N-G bestfriends become strangers, strangers become bestfriends thats totally awkward. except those changes of people around me, my heat is also changing *ababil* it's acting OVER SENSITIVE well, i'm an sensitive person but before it i wasn't OVERLY SENSITIVE! and you know what, it kills me :( what would you say if a friend of you or even bestfriend speak bad things about you INFRONT  of you with her innocent face?! i won't yell at her or even get mad, but please my heart's breaking! heart breaks not only because of love things but it also breaks because of any judgments, wrong opinion! fyi, i don't hate people breaking my heart i just feel like it's better for me to take far steps from them, you probably know what i mean! okay than the second one is, what would you feel if someone called herself your bestfriend actin like one but she can't even understand how you really are even you've been with her for 4 years long and you've told her about your dislike about her, and she understood it but she repeat it for about 3 times?! HELL, was i wrong choosing bestfriend? people i feel like they wasn't my bestfriend because i just know them for a short period of time understands what i mean when i tell them my dislikes about them, wait i am not speaking about 'I want everyone to change for me' but i am talking about a FRIENDSHIP and how i and my bestfriend take part in! this person really realized me that BESTFRIEND WASN'T BASED ON HOW LONG YOU KNOW SOMEONE BUT HOW COULD YOU UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER. and pleae to everyone, STOP BEING STUBBORN, you should try to listen to people's opinion than listening to your own opinion, PEOPLE SEE YOU, GOD GIVE YOU RELATIVES TO HELP YOU TO BE A BETTER PERSON! when people hates you please watch yourself, 'have i done sth wrong?' not ' she hates me i hate her back HAHA' i call this kind of person STUPID! ah i'm done with these things, i really wish i am someone without any heart or a fragile heart who won't feel any pain when someone try to break it and won't care how people around me say bad words or any other mean things in front of me! well, before you dismiss me, listen:

1. I won't take any shixz from people who doesn't meant much in my life. i mean i won't listen to bad opinions about me from people who doesn't know me well or who haven't known me for such a long time! but when my besties or family speak bad about me i feel like i just wanna disappear!
2. I won't get hurt when i know that person didn't mean it, like when we're joking together or that person have ever told me that ' when i mock you or speak bad things about you im joking i appreciate this kind of people!
3. When i am deeply in love with someone i won't keep those words in my heart cause my sensitivity doesn't work to someone i deeply love (this thing happens to me after sth i've been trough, and probably i am still trough it) cause well i knew him before and when he speak something bad about me there are many meanings behind it and boyfriend talks and bestfriend talks well the way they say it to me should be different, and certainly are! 

so people or strangers when you say anything about me SORRY i won't think about it and people whom my heart's being sensitive to, YOU GUYS MEAN A LOT TO ME :) 

if you have PEACE within yourself nobody can touch you no matter WHAT happens! mom said this to me, but well, i can't even fight myself now, but i have to try, but well people can't change directly :)