over sensitivity.

HELL-O people, how's life treating you? well life's trating me like b*tch now HEEEEEELLLL! everyone's changing, C-H-A-N-G-I-N-G bestfriends become strangers, strangers become bestfriends thats totally awkward. except those changes of people around me, my heat is also changing *ababil* it's acting OVER SENSITIVE well, i'm an sensitive person but before it i wasn't OVERLY SENSITIVE! and you know what, it kills me :( what would you say if a friend of you or even bestfriend speak bad things about you INFRONT  of you with her innocent face?! i won't yell at her or even get mad, but please my heart's breaking! heart breaks not only because of love things but it also breaks because of any judgments, wrong opinion! fyi, i don't hate people breaking my heart i just feel like it's better for me to take far steps from them, you probably know what i mean! okay than the second one is, what would you feel if someone called herself your bestfriend actin like one but she can't even understand how you really are even you've been with her for 4 years long and you've told her about your dislike about her, and she understood it but she repeat it for about 3 times?! HELL, was i wrong choosing bestfriend? people i feel like they wasn't my bestfriend because i just know them for a short period of time understands what i mean when i tell them my dislikes about them, wait i am not speaking about 'I want everyone to change for me' but i am talking about a FRIENDSHIP and how i and my bestfriend take part in! this person really realized me that BESTFRIEND WASN'T BASED ON HOW LONG YOU KNOW SOMEONE BUT HOW COULD YOU UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER. and pleae to everyone, STOP BEING STUBBORN, you should try to listen to people's opinion than listening to your own opinion, PEOPLE SEE YOU, GOD GIVE YOU RELATIVES TO HELP YOU TO BE A BETTER PERSON! when people hates you please watch yourself, 'have i done sth wrong?' not ' she hates me i hate her back HAHA' i call this kind of person STUPID! ah i'm done with these things, i really wish i am someone without any heart or a fragile heart who won't feel any pain when someone try to break it and won't care how people around me say bad words or any other mean things in front of me! well, before you dismiss me, listen:

1. I won't take any shixz from people who doesn't meant much in my life. i mean i won't listen to bad opinions about me from people who doesn't know me well or who haven't known me for such a long time! but when my besties or family speak bad about me i feel like i just wanna disappear!
2. I won't get hurt when i know that person didn't mean it, like when we're joking together or that person have ever told me that ' when i mock you or speak bad things about you im joking i appreciate this kind of people!
3. When i am deeply in love with someone i won't keep those words in my heart cause my sensitivity doesn't work to someone i deeply love (this thing happens to me after sth i've been trough, and probably i am still trough it) cause well i knew him before and when he speak something bad about me there are many meanings behind it and boyfriend talks and bestfriend talks well the way they say it to me should be different, and certainly are! 

so people or strangers when you say anything about me SORRY i won't think about it and people whom my heart's being sensitive to, YOU GUYS MEAN A LOT TO ME :) 

if you have PEACE within yourself nobody can touch you no matter WHAT happens! mom said this to me, but well, i can't even fight myself now, but i have to try, but well people can't change directly :)